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WTF!!! [Aug. 21st, 2015|07:43 am]
bosslady0410

Am so through with this marriage it unreal. I've understand my whole marriage has been about him why do i say that because right now am on the way to hospital alone no support just laying in the bed everytime this man has gone to doctor's office or hospital am there where is he for me am so hurt and angry right now.

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It has to end [Aug. 9th, 2015|05:25 pm]
bosslady0410

If i knew what i know now i would've never got married for the past year i've been paying for this mustake and this weekend i almost loss my kids behind being married to this man and as i lay here and watch him just layiing in bed like he always does am thinking WTH am i still here i pray god gives me the strength to end this & make a better live for me and my children ...

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Can't Catch A Break For Sh#t!!!! [Aug. 6th, 2015|04:46 pm]
bosslady0410

So am at work and i call to check on my girls & my oldest tell me cps sent a letter to the house for me so am like WTH is going on she gives me a number on paper & i call it am being told that my husband's babymomma (who had her kids taken) said i couple things so they have to meet with the family .

Okay i know my house is not all that but my kids never hungry or dirty i go to work 5days a week, 40+ hours to make sure they have everything they need.

To me this is something else put on me behind who am married to this lady has been causing problems in my life every since i married him. I mean i can't caught a break for shit i lose one child when my new born passed now i feel like their trying to take my other kids ...

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Venting Time !!!# [Jul. 18th, 2015|09:36 am]
bosslady0410

I don't think i can hold on any longer i go to work 40+hours a week (5days) on my feet then i come home clean,take care of my girls, and cook dinner to make sure everyone eats my night at 10pm by 5:55am am back up starting all over again & school hasn't even started back yet.

All the while my husband of nine years is laying up in the bed yesterday i had to curse him out just to get him up so i could change the bed sheets . Is he hurt no three months ago he had some mental breakdown after holding a job for four months & BEEN IN THE BED since then he does help with nothing i pay all the bills,buy the food & anything we need for the house when i come in from work he'll help bring the bags in go lay back down, everyday i come in oh he didn't eat all day waiting on me to feed him.

Half the time am wanting pull my hair out & now without sitting down talking to me since am the breadwinner he tells my stepdaughter she can move in with us like WTF am already taking care of me,my girls and his grown ass now his daughter i CAN'T AFFORD to provide for anyone else we're struggle as it is i feel like getting my girls and leaving SERIOUSLY i mean how many more years of this can i take!!!!!

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4Th OF July [Jul. 6th, 2015|07:32 am]
bosslady0410

This weekend was okay the kids had fun and ate good i got so tispy i finally let out all my tears & how i was feeling behind my daughter passing it seems like my husband was listening but he showed no emtion or tried to hug me it made me feel worse. I've been so wrap up in his problems & mental illness that i haven't had time to feel or work through my pain and it hurts every night i cry myself to sleep ..

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MEN UGH!!! [Jun. 28th, 2015|09:03 am]
bosslady0410

Well it back to work tomorrow i enjoyed my two days off until last night my girls were in the living room playing sims3 on the computer & listening to music my husband was laying in the bed like he was sleep so i poured me a glass of wine and found some stand-up comedy to watch.

Well before it was over my husband grabs the remote and trys to turn it i said "wait this the last person then you can change it " WHY did i do that ? I had to hear that what i watch is boring or shouldn't be watching it cause i have kids or i don't watch his shows i either fall asleep or leave the room okay WTH!!! He watches three shows over & over All Freaken Day american dad,seinfield and dexter am not the kind of person who turns on hulu plus & then let roll all day same show. I like drama shows or movies,scary movies and reality shows & half of the time am watching tv his sleep and kids playing in another room if they walk in i pause it until they leave.

To me i just feel like his picking a fight i mean really who takes the remotes with them everytime they get up that so childlish to me and even after i said i don't what we watch not going to argue over something so petty he keeps going am like WTF what with men that after you be quiet and try to calm everything down they want keep arguing & yell but if you explode oh she has an attiude and anger problem .

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Stop Coming For Me [Jun. 27th, 2015|12:42 pm]
bosslady0410

So am off work today kind of glad need the rest i've been thinking alot about why always me? Reason why i say that is everytime someone new comes in our company they always come after me give you an example about an year ago some lady who just started at our store decide she want my overnight shift and hours they explained to her i was the overnight cashier and she can have my days off wasn't good enough for her she transfered to another location and got fired.

Now an older lady i guess was hired while i was on my three months leave who always calling in saying how it not fair i get more hours than her and constanly complaining about my hours and i make more then her am like WTF i been here THREE YEARS barely making $8 an hour i earn the right to 40hours a week plus we are union so i have seniorty get off it everyone has money problems not just her.

Yesterday she ran to where i was trying to see how much i was spending on my groceries and then she was working customer serivce i got a money order to pay my rent she tried to act like she forgot to give to me so am standing there like where my money order "oh am trying find another job my mind some where else" am like whatever

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Can't Handle It Anymore!!! [Jun. 24th, 2015|08:36 pm]
bosslady0410

I really wish at times my life would be different i try so hard to help everyone & it draining me. It like after my daughter passed i wasn't given the change to grive and work through my feeling i was throwed back into going to work and all my husband's problems now six months later am still hurting but i haven't been able to work through my loss it my husband's health problems,babymoma drama and his family member am finding it so hard to stay married it might be hard being alone but aless all this drama and BullShit will be out my life i wish i had friends just to talk to and let know how am feeling..

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Catch up been gone a while [Jun. 23rd, 2015|07:04 am]
bosslady0410

Hi everyone been gone for a while so much has happen one entry won't cover it. Were do i start on 12/29/2014 i had a beautiful litte girl name Mariah but she had so many health problems that on 12/30/2014 she passed a way in my arms it hurt for a while am still dealing with it right now i was put on medicine for postpartum depression and because of a bunch of red tape still haven't buried her yet.

My two beautiful girls are doing great Aaliyah 13yrs old going to eight grade and Nautica 7yrs old going to the 2nd grade .

Me and my husband 10yrs married now it was real rocky at first when Mariah passed but were doing okay now his still driving trucks and am still working as a cashier at retail store.

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First Day Of School [Aug. 27th, 2012|01:48 pm]
bosslady0410
[Current Mood |cheerfulcheerful]

Wow so today was the first day of school got both my babies up at 6:30am to dress and hair comb I was kind worried because it would be the first time my four yr old was not by my side all day my oldest keep telling me mommy don't cry and stop snapping pictures i think i took about 20 pictures before we even made it to school (LOL).

Well we got to the school a bunch other moms were crying and i held my in until i walk to her gave her a kiss and said don't cry be big girl she said okay bye bye and look at us like am okay why are you guys still standing her i bust out crying my husband took me outside we hug our oldest who so sweet she said it okay if anything happen i gave the teacher my room number&teacher name i got her mommy I think that made me cry more it like they don't need me anymore i peep in my 4yr old pre-k room one more time she was coloring talking to classmates fine i was the one whose a wreck .

Now am sitting in a empty house kids at school,husband at work got 11 hrs before i go work 2 more hrs before they get out of school don't know what do with my self miss my babies .


HAPPY BIRTHDAY POPPIES:)
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